Last Night I Cried

One of the things that I have loved for as long as I can remember is medical TV series. I used to watch Quincy as a kid; I love ER, have watched it since the first season and look forward to days off from work so I can watch the reruns on TNT. I love Grey's, Private Practice...you get the picture! Well, one of my latest favorite medical series is called Hopkins. The show comes on at 10pm on Thursday nights, right after Grey's reruns. I love this show because unlike my other faves, it's based on real life doctors and real life people. Last night, this show made me sob! A little girl was bought in, she was found in a swimming pool (she had attended a swimming party earlier that day). The camera shows this little girl's entire family at the hospital, including her PREGNANT mother just grasping at any straw of hope. When they were told that there was irreversible brain damage and that she was pretty much brain dead, just watching the reactions just broke my heart and made me cry. My heart went out to the whole family, especially the mom. I mean, she is about to bring a life into the world and at the same time she's losing one. The family eventually opted to have life support turned off...I couldn't begin to imagine what that loss feels like.

It really touched home with me because less than 2 weeks ago, I had a pool incident with Donovan. He went past the 3 feet mark in a pool and was struggling to stand up, the water was up past his mouth. He was pulled out before he swallowed too much water and all I could do was thank God. After seeing this show, I went and laid in the bed next to him and watched him breath and counted my blessings. I then went and stood next to Xander's crib and did the same thing. I took a while for me to get myself together and eventually I fell off to sleep.